Teenager Depression: I'm a cutter

by Anonymous

I'm a cutter

I always act really hyper in schoool. It feels like if I do, I'll forget how upset I am but it only works for a little bit. My best friend wants me to tell my mom: I'm a cutter. I just can't do that to her. My best friend keeps telling me that she'll be fine and it i'll feel better. But my mom is already having a hard time because of my brother and her divorce, and always being in court with my dad. I also don't wanna hurt my dad and stepmom.
I don't know if its real depression or something that ill get over. I don't know how to tell. All the little emo comments really bug me, and I can always relate little things to cutting at school, but I usually try to push them outta my mind.
Some of my friends know and I wish that I could take back telling them because some of them have cut because they know I do, and they think because I do it makes me feel better and they think that it will make them feel better too.
It only makes me feel worse knowing that I'm the reason they thought to cut. The only thing keeping me here, is not wanting to hurt my family and best friend...she cuts too.

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I understand
by: Anonymous

Ok, I don't know what to say, but here goes.
I also cut. And I'm shocked by how much harm you can do to yourself. It's easy to be told to tell someone, but another to act upon it. You need to, though, someone, somehow.

I'm a cutter and I have the same problem
by: Anonymous

I still cut and it's been about one year. It all started when my friend...my BEST friend who I told everything and trusted everything with ditched me for a more popular girl. We all started hanging out and she was SO mean to me an my parents are so harsh and I don't trust them so all my anger just kept building until I snapped...then I started cutting...and now I'm addicted practicly...some other girls on my hockey team saw my cuts and started cutting themselves and they have no reason to!): I feel like I'm the blame for everything now! And my mom and dad both found out I cut an made me swear to stop and they've now forgot about it completly and I'm very good at hiding them now...I know I need help but I don't know who to turn to. It's summer and I don't trust my parents an have like 5 ok friends, I don't trust them yet and I don't know what to do): could someone help me?):

I know what you are going through
by: Becca

I had the exact same problem. I had a really bad cutting problem when I was younger and thankfuly i stopped 3 years ago. I havent cut myself since. What helped me was figuring out why I was cutting myself. I didnt like myself image, but I talked to someone who made me feel better. He saved my life and became a life long friend. Find someone that will give you tough love. I told my mom last year and honestly I wish I hadnt. It only caused her more pain and she wasnt even going throught the same things your mom is going through. Find someone who you can talk to who wont get hurt by what your doing. I hurt my mom by not telling her and even though I have been clean for years, she blames herself and worries that I will do it again. You can get through it. Trust me. Good Luck

It will be okay.
by: Anonymous

It's always hard to know if your just sad, or if you really do have a disorder like Depression. I know it might be hard for you to tell your mom, but if she could get you some help.. everything would be so easier. I understand what your going through, or at least Im trying. I have had a similar problem and cutting seemed to make everything better. trust me, your mother loves you and even though she might be mad once you tell her, everything will be okay with the proper help.

Tell someone
by: Anonymous

If you can't tell your mom, tell someone else, and aunt, teacher, doctor, because you need to get help so you can change how you deal with things that upset you.

Good Luck

Don't you really know why do you cut yourself?
by: Laslo

How to tell your parents is not a good a question. I think you mean: How to tell them causing the least trouble.
But the trouble can be found elsewhere. If your parents knew your cutting, nothing would change.
My question is: Why do you cut yourself? I cannot accept a simple lie -- I don't know.
Try to tell me the truth or part of the truth, and we will explore the real reason...