Need Help Now

by Becky

I am a Christian. I believe I will not remain in this state. I started perimenopuase about 10 years ago...and for most of the time, I am a well-adjusted happy woman. I am 48 years old with 9 year old adopted twins from Korea who are wonderful. My husband is so supportive and my church is supportive as well. I have a wonderful "mission" career as a high school principal which I totally enjoy. I have a doctor who works well with me. So what is the problem.....??? When the hormones are off...the depression is feel is so disabilitating. So severe. So overwhelming I cannot stop crying and crying and crying and crying. Normally I am an upbeat, see the glass Half-full" kind of person. This depression simply robs me of everything in the world I normally am.

My doctor has just doubled by antidepressant to "pull me out" of the hole. I also take hormones and Gabitril as a mood stabilizer.

I have not had an episode like this in over two years. My GYN says I am on the tail end of menopause.

I just can't seem to put one foot in front of the other right now. I cannot cope right now. I hate this...I want relief so badly...for my and my sweet little girls.

I am a woman who usually makes national presentations (and loves it)...I love to cook and craft and play music and meditate.

When this hits, it is so strong...I barely can get out of bed. I ate this. Please help. Any words of encouragement. I want to feel better so very, very badly...so very, very soon.

Please offer some words of comfort. Ho do I just get through this day....this next moment?

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Dear Becky
by: Laslo

I am a Christian, too. I do believe, I?m convinced, that you will not remain in this state.

Your ?illness? came from an unknown source to destabilize your sunny and wonderful life. We may use the phrase ?menopause depression? but it does not give any light in the darkness, actually it is an empty phrase.
I see you tried everything what your doctors suggested. Even you doubled the dose of antidepressants but the result is rather negative. You take hormones to diminish the effect of menopause. But the result is not what you want.
I know that you suffer a lot and your normal world is almost destroyed. I worked together with a lot of ladies suffering from menopause and showing depressive symptoms. Here is the good news: Most of them were able to overcome the depressive state.
I observed that some women would like to lengthen a given period of life and do not want to step in the era in the new epoch of their life. Your state might be rather a crisis of your life, a necessary shift of your life rather than a consequence of hormonal changes.
Why do change hormones? Why do change the body? Is it an illness?
You are a Christian. Do you think that the change of your body is a mistake of God? Or do you think that God?s wisdom is woven into everything, including your body and including menopause.
In my view menopause is not a punishment, it is rather an appeal for renewing your life.
The question is how can you renew your life. Your previous trial was to reinstate your life. You may try to renew your life.
You should decide: Who are you? Are you equal to your body? If yes, you should decline with your body. If not, if you are a spiritual being, created by God, having an eternal life, then you won?t decline. You will rise. Lift up your heart!
I?ll help you if you want.

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I am a Christian, too. I do believe, I?m convinced, that you will not remain in this state. Your ?illness? came from an unknown source to destabilize your sunny and wonderful life. We may use the phrase ?menopause depression? but it does not give any light in the darkness, actually it is an empty phrase. I see you tried everything what your doctors suggested. Even you doubled the dose of antidepressants but the result is rather negative. You take hormones to diminish the effect of menopause. But the result is not what you want. I know that you suffer a lot and your normal world is almost destroyed. I worked together with a lot of ladies suffering from menopause and showing depressive symptoms. Here is the good news: Most of them were able to overcome the depressive state. I observed that some women would like to lengthen a given period of life and do not want to step in the era in the new epoch of their life. Your state might be rather a crisis of your life, a necessary shift of your life rather than a consequence of hormonal changes. Why do change hormones? Why do change the body? Is it an illness? You are a Christian. Do you think that the change of your body is a mistake of God? Or do you think that God?s wisdom is woven into everything, including your body and including menopause. In my view menopause is not a punishment, it is rather an appeal for renewing your life. The question is how can you renew your life. Your previous trial was to reinstate your life. You may try to renew your life. You should decide: Who are you? Are you equal to your body? If yes, you should decline with your body. If not, if you are a spiritual being, created by God, having an eternal life, then you won?t decline. You will rise. Lift up your heart! I?ll help you if you want.

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