Lost

My whole life there have been issues with my world there ins't a time in my entire life so far that I can think that something has gone perfectly right. There hasn't been one good thing that didn't have a bad after effect.

I used to always think to myself that it's going to go away but everything has just gotten worse when I was 12 I cut for the first time and it felt good....but my life got so busy with problems I had no time to think about anything but the work that needed to be done until

I was 14. During the whole time I spent not thinking about anything but my work I lost track of any meaning, just that I had thing to do for other people but I didn't know why. I slipped into a deep cavern of hopelessness and unfeeling.

I started cutting again but this time I couldn't feel it. I saw the blood but I felt no pain. I was empty. I tried to kill myself to see if I would feel anything but the attempt was unsuccessful and then I soon became to busy again to try again. But now I'm 15 and I'm purposly ignoring my work and I can't feel anymore....the blood is spilled but nothing comes from it except scars.....