Life Sucks

by Jennifer
(Indianapoli,Indiana)

I am 13 yrs old. I am depressed,try as i might,i cant be happy.I was a very happy person as a young child.Shortly after i turned 9 my little brother's father raped me. The man who was a father figure raped me.Despite that i was still happy.Then we started having money problems,that is when my mother would beat me.It had all finally caught up with me. I would cry and cry. After i turned 13 i tryed killing myself. I was so tired of life.I hide mnay things from the outside world. I am bisexual and only my boyfriend and close friends of mine,know it.I started cutting at the end of 7th grade. My arm and theighs are scared for life. I am curently trying to stop cutting,by writing my feelings into poems. Nobody is helping me,im alone.My parents are divorced so i only live with my mother. SHe doesnt know anything. I use my fake happiness.I am very shy and withdrawned from ppl. All i want is to be happy again.