Life My Way

by Allie
(America)

Ello! My name is Allie, 13 and my life is like well -- hell. People ask me "Why are so depressed?" I say "because of all the crap around me...." Now what is this crap?

1. Our school. My school has about 89 students and it is very frustrating. There are very scary and mean people there. And academics are even harder. I struggle in classes and people think I am still smart. I don't get it.

2. Dad. Probably my life is soo bad because of him. See he has a condition that makes him very crabby and he takes me angry all out on me. He has never gotten physical yet but he has push my mother down a few times. He just says the worst things at the worst time like we lost one of our basketball games ( thats number 3) and i asked him what i did good. He said " You played like crap. Nothing was good," and eventually start to cry and he screams at me because I do. He also pushes my grades. Trying to get me to get A's, but I cant do that. There is lots of other crap about him but he is not worth my time.

3: Basketball. I liked that sport. I did. Really. But now my dad tells me I'm horrible. It takes me all my free time to do that. But nothing comes out.

4: My weight: I am big for my age. Everyone says that. I feel like shit and they don't get it. But, there is one thing still pushing me along all this. Him. HE takes to me and calls me and sits by me. Everyone think we are the new couple and it makes me happy. He makes me feel lucky. Not juts lucky sooo lucky. I wanted to thank him for all he is done. He didn't even know he saved my life. I LOVE U!