Life As I See It

by emma
(virginia)

I don't know what will happen anymore. I don't feel like I have any real friends at school. Every day my homework seems like it's written in an alien language.

Nobody compliments me, but avoids me. I don't cut and I don't have thoughts of suicide. I find myself staring into a black abyss. Most of it is that my dad constantly screams, lectures, punishes, and verbally threatens me....he's never home because he always travels for his work. I see him on the weekends and he mainly does what's stated above when he is home. My mom doesnt talk to me much.

My parents never do anything active with me because they are obese and have lazy tendancies. The one person that I think could brighten my life is a boy named Tim, but as usual, nobody seems to love or like me. My only salvation is music. I feel like I could punch this one girl in my class named Makenna. She is 13 and talks about pop music, dirty and just flat out sick jokes, mini skirts and sluttish clothes, and makeup. She thinks she is an adult, the truth is everyone around me is less mature than I am.

They don't beleive it because I don't excell in certain classes and that I mask who I really am with a funny and outgoing person. I can't keep hiding it, and most people are already parting from me. My dad is a drug addict and my mom supports him. They disguist me now and they would never guess or even think that I might be depressed or have any mental issue. My mom literally laughed when I mentioned that I might be depressed as if it were the most absured thing she had ever heard. Help me, please.

Emma Smith, age 12