Isn't Worth Living

by Someone

I'm only 13 but I feel like life isn't worth living.
I don't want to tell my parents because half the time they are the problem. I don't want to tell my friends either because I have no clue how they'll react. The only console I really have is my one friend who I almost never get to see. And our friendship is sometimes on and off. My other friends recently though have been noticing changes. They say I'm really irritable and I'm tired all the time.
I have a reason for being tired. On average, I get maybe 6 hours of sleep only. I try to shrug everything off. My solution is to hide it all. If you ask people at my school many of my friends think I'm extremely hyper and happy all the time. One even voted me for most optimistic. It's a cruel world though and I don't think any of them understand exactly what I'm going through.
I'm scared to tell anyone and I don't think it's worth it. It started sometime last year I think. That's when I started to first feel really sad at times. It was weird. I didn't think it was anything serious. It would go on and off. It still does. When I'm depressed it usually doesn't carry on to the next day. The only problem is that I am constantly depressed. Every other day is normal for me. Sometimes more or less. My life would have been over by now had it not been for a few reasons. One of which is that I don't want to hurt my friends by leaving.

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Isn't Worth Living

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Im'm 13 too.
by: YourOtherHalf

Everything you just said explains everything I feel. I really mean every sentence in there is exaclty the same as me. It's weird.. I am just glad somebody knows how I feel.

You are going thru a lot of changes
by: Anonymous

Right now your body is going thru a lot of changes.
Those changes are both physical and chemical and mental.
That is causing many of your symptoms.
It's a rough thing for lots of people to transistion from being a child to being an adult.
You are at the cusp of this huge change in your life.
It's not unusual to feel as you do, believe me you are not alone feeling this way.

It was such a tumultous time for me that I remember it happening.... 47 years ago... when I was your age.

BTW, you'll go thru another profound change in about another 40 years. It'll be similar to this one accompanied by 'hot flashes' and stuff like that.

Get your self a pet, a dog. If you laready have one try spending some 'quality' time with your dog.
Dogs are GREAT thereapy. I know mine are 'therepy' dogs, LOL.

You're going to be just fine, sweety, it's all going to work out ok you're just going thru this rough stretch of lifes road. Everybody has to bounce thru it, you'll be ok.
Try to get interested in something, anything.
Reading, anything. It will help to have some interest.
A whole, entire, wonderful, life is just ahead for you.

What is worth?
by: Laslo

First of all, congratulation to your lines. Mark A for the composition and phrasing. It was worth to write it.
I was thinking about your thoughts. Could you tell me something -- anything, that is worth to do it. If life is not worth living then what else is worth to do? Life is the most challenging what you can find. Put up a brave fight!