Is there anybody out there?

by Candy
(Scotland)

This feeling has been on and off for as long as I can remember. Ever since I was around 6 i've just felt useless and like I don't belong.

My parents were constantly fighting and me and my older brother were lost but we always put on a brave face. But before either of us knew it we were packed up and moving away from our home, without my dad. He had moved out and started seeing some woman who I don't even want to remember. My mum was so upset that I didn't have the chance to feel sad. I had to look after her the best as I could with the little help I got from my brother.

My mum and dad were on and off for months, years even. And this didn't help either. All I wanted was for them to either get back together and we could be a family on just end it and we could all move on.
But, the family didn't work, my dad had permanently moved out and my brother and I were left to pick up the pieces.
I am now 15 years old, and i'm still holding the mental and physical scars of my painful childhood. Of no-one caring about how I feel and just trying to make it through the day with a brave face.
All of my childhood still affects me throughout my life, I seem to be unable to keep a stable relationship with any boy and the relationship with my mum and dad are near enough non existent.

But I guess this just shows you how you cannot expect anything from anyone. That you are alone in this hell hole they call "life".