Im Very Lonely

by P.I
(NYC)

Well here i am, 49 years old, had what I thought was a good family, my wife while not loving at all for the past 10 years, i still thought i would live with her forever and as faithful to her the entire 22 years. Last year she started changing how she dressed, going out having a great time, but not wanting anything to do with me. I caught her on the phone with a man - she denied it and this went on all summer, in the fall i really tried to show her how i loved her and i discovered hurtful love letters and she said very mean things to me but i tried to the point where i got sick with anxiety and could not go out, i am now "dosabled" by panic disorder and cant really do anything, Im living at my mothers house , about to lose my job and lately have not en been so nice to my mother. I am a nice man and i did my best but everything is out of control , i have no more income, no happyness, i barely go out and to top it off i broke my front tooth on a bagel yesterday.

I am trying so hard but i have no friends, nothing, i am just surviving and I have nothing to look forward to and Im very lonely

so I tried to get myself out in the workd and at least find soneone to talk to and maybe start dating, I met who i thhought was a nice girl and we were just chatting and i get a phone call from some lunitic telling me this woman is his girlfriend so needless to say thats over.

It just goes freom bad to worse

Im just sharing this to get it off my chest .. Im OK and bumpoing along but I am just so down.

ANyway ...Take care and thanks for giving me a place to post my story,

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Im Very Lonely

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Jul 22, 2011
 You are not alone NEW
by: Anonymous

There are many men and women who are alone in this world. Some who are seperated or divorced and some who have never married. The one this you need to remember is to not isolate yourself. It is the worst thing you can do. I know this from experience. Try to get involved with a local church or other groups that will get you around people. This will help you build new friendships and get you out of the house. I started by doing volunteer work. It not only was helping the organization I was volunteering for but it was rewarding for me as well. It gave me a sence of belonging, a purpose, a good feeling inside. Don't go running out and do a lot at once. Start small and build up. I hope thing get better for you.

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