I'm getting help

by Sarah
(arizona)

A voice in my head
I have held back
For so long
Tells me theres something I lack

I feel like I am dying
Drowning in pain
I am a robot
Standing in the rain

I tell my friends that I am fine
But they doubt my lies
They just don't know what I've tried
To get on with my life

The scars on my body fade
From the pressure of the knives
But the weight in my heart
Only intensifies

One day I lay
Deader than I've ever been
in bed and decide
That I can no longer stand it

It was hard to reach out
To wash away the lies
I have yet to get help
But now its only a matter of time.