I want to stop

by Ellie
(Wellington)

I'm thirteen and I go to an all girls school. I used to be really confident and bubbly but when I was 6 kids started beating me up and saying that I was worthless.

I believe them. 2 years ago I felt so numb that the only way I felt I could solve it would be to cut. Since then I have cut every day, at least 3 times daily. I cut my stomach and thighs so that no-one will see. The only person that knows is my best friend and she cuts too, although not as much as me.

I know I need to stop but it's the only way that I feel like I'm worth something. I don't want to stop. I'm too scared to talk to the councillor at school and I don't want anyone in my family to know. Especially my mum.

She laughed it off when I told her I cut myself. That was a year ago. Now all I want to do is fall asleep and never wake up.

I needed to talk to people who can understand.

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I want to stop

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Oct 03, 2011
 YOU ARE WORTH EVERYTHING.
by: Jo

Cutting yourself is not a solution. It is only going to get worse. I started cutting in 7th grade, I am in college now. You think it's going to solve it but it won't. I used to make small cuts on my wrist and it would feel so good, eventually I didn't feel that anymore. For me to really feel good I have to cut my whole arm, and my waist. Sweetie, cuttin is not a solutiong, cutting is only making it worse, please believe me. Try to find something else that makes you feel like youre "worth something". Boxing..kick some butt!!
- It took me awhile to realize this but..Noone is going to care about someone who doesn't care about themselves. Love yourself first angel.
Sep 19, 2011
 you're not alone
by: Anonymous

i'm in the exact same postion. my parents are the reason i cut and it feels like a way out,but sometimes it's not. I've been bullied also and trust me the bullies just want to get to your head, but just stay strong and hold your head up high and carry on with your life; because in the long run, your life is a hell of a lot better than theirs.
even if you dont think there are people there for you; your dead wrong. People that you dont even know are there for you.
Sep 15, 2011
 I know What your going through
by: Anonymous

I went through the same thing last year. I have so many scars from the abuse i went through from my dad. You just need to know that there is someone out there for everyone. Idk if u believe in God but he does exist. Everyone has a purpose in life. God gives us hard times so we can enjoy the good times even more. Keep your head up. Trust in God. He always helped me when times were hard for me.

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