I have a perfect life, but I am depressed.

by Ashley
(North Carolina)

I feel like there is no point to living. I know this is a type of depression, but I have absolutely no thoughts whatsoever to end my life. I am a very strange case of depression if that is truly what I have. My life is almost perfect in every way but I still feel extremely lonely and pointless!
I have a mother, a father (still married), a brother, a kinda complicated relationship (going on 3 ½ years now), a puppy, a cat, a car, a job, a $54,000 academic scholarship to Wake Forest University (yes, I’m smart), an unlimited android cell phone, two laptops, a couple TVs with full cable, a very athletic good looking body, an 8 out of 10 pretty face, very good style clothing, and a bunch of common friends (only one best friend who I was in a relationship with).
I can dance very good (ballet, tap, modern, jazz) and have always won the highest titles in competitions, I was the lead runner for my cross country team and star athlete for my track team, I was a key member of a bunch of academic teams at my high school, my teachers loved me, I am a very kind person and I mainly try to make friends with the people that are “different” and that no one else will be friends with, I have a strong reputation for being perfect in everything and being the nicest person in the room, I have a bunch of guys who like me, I am relatively active on social networks, I am a computer geek at times and love programming, I am a very good artist in paint, photography, crafts, drawing (except for cartoon drawings, I’m not too great at those), and almost any other type of creativity, I have always been the smartest in all of my classes and I used to love Math until I maxed out Multivariable Calculus then I became bored with the subject, I believe in God but I also love to think about major philosophies, I am a very good debater, I am very persuasive if I need to be, I have a perfect shot of being an excellent Lawyer (my career goal), I can play the piano, guitar, recorder, and most other instruments decently, I can sing really good but I have a very unappealing singing voice, I don’t have many insecurities about the way I look (I have a nose that is a little big on the tip and kinda long toes), I can cook very good and replicate recipes without actually having the recipe, I am a little messy at times when I am busy and I procrastinate sometimes, I love designing things and I decorate rooms very uniquely, I am very, very understanding when it comes to my relationships but I cannot stand to be lied to, I love to play video games but not too much, I like reading but only if there isn’t a lot of “fluff” (I mainly read textbooks and online blogs), I have relatively good health (I have stomach problems from stress and I get migraines sometimes), I don’t have a bunch of money (but as I mentioned earlier I have enough to have the main luxury things), I am very fun to be around when I feel comfortable in the situation, I know a lot about politics and just about every other subject, I have a strong desire to learn everything I can from every perspective I can possibly approach it at, I am a natural bound leader as long as I’m not too busy, I literally have hundreds of trophies and even more certificates, and I’m not the best speller but I can sound very profound and use large words if I want to (I admit I do sometimes use the thesaurus).
There are probably A TON more good things about my life, but it’s getting kinda boring typing all this stuff. I do have a problem when it comes to getting something done; if I start something and I don’t see a legit reason to quit, I “have” to finish it and I “have” to try as hard as I can to get it done as best as I can. I am a real perfectionist but not in the way that I cause trouble to those around me; it’s mainly all in my head and I don’t express it much. It drives me absolutely crazy inside when I am trying to explain something in every possible way and people still don’t understand. I sometimes feel like they do understand but just don’t pay attention to me (I know this is 99% of the time NOT the case but at the time I cannot help but think it). It may sound like I am conceited by what I am writing, but I would absolutely never mention this stuff to the average person; I DO NOT think I am perfect but I do think that if I realize a flaw with myself, fixing it will be my number one priority until it is fixed. In almost every person’s perspective of me, they think my life is absolutely as perfect as it is going to get and they wish they were me: I feel sorry for them because it is not easy to be me!!! It may be easy for me to seem perfect and get everything that makes one perfect (material things, friendship, spiritual connections, knowledge, relationships, ability to get things done, etc…) but I do not have any sort of respect for any of these things! None of these things are important to me because I feel empty and unsatisfied with all of those things. The only problem I have (which is why I am depressed) is that I cannot even remotely imagine anything that would actually make me satisfied with life! I see no point in it.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!