i cry my eyes out

by i dont want you to know

I'm like most of the other posts so confused.
I'm 16.
I cry my eyes out almost every day cos I don't feel good enough for anyone — especially not my parents.
I get straight As at school and I try my best to do whatever I can to make people, especially my parents happy.
And I love my parents.
On the outside people think I'm perfect but i know i'm not. I know i'm ugly and i know i can never be a perfect person.
But it seems like whatever i do is not good enough
Like i'm a bad daughter a bad sister and bad friends and a bad person in general.
It is stupid i know and i feel really stupid writing this.
I get irritated really easily.
And very recently i've not been able to do any work at all.
I have had suicidal thoughts but i'm way to scared to do anything cos i know that god wont be happy