Desperately want to die

by Sarah
(Sydney, Australia)

Photo courtesy of Libby

Photo courtesy of Libby

I've been feeling miserable and numb for about 6 months now. I'm 16 and desperately want to die. I've been feeling worse and worse everyday for the past month and now its so bad its unbearable. I find myself looking up the best methods of suicide every night and I've even come up with several plans. I cut my wrist; not badly but enough to hurt.

I don't have the energy to do anything. I just lie on the floor and stare at the ceiling, or curl into a ball against my door and cry. I think I'm depressed but I don't even care about getting better. Its like I don't have the energy to care about anything any more. I really hate my life, even though logically I should be happy with everything I have. Am I depressed?

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Desperately want to die

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Its Depression
by: Anonymous

It may be depression or you're just a wise soul. I have asevere depression that will have me zombified. I don't take any medications bc I was on them my entire life and they just make me feel worse. I won't be able to smile, eat. And EVERYTHING is DOOMed. I desperately beg and beg the fucking air to just take me out of my misery! I say air bc I've become so negative and so numb that I can't even say the word God and feel comfortable. I live for the end! And its the worst feeling to be stuck in your own hell. It takes a lot of WISDOM to NOT kill yourself. It takes an unselfish and strong individual to rise above it. I desperately oh so desperately want to die. Just fucking kill me now type shit but I know that I will get that chance... but first I have to live this hell. As for being a wise old soul. If you've ever researched about the spiritual nature. If you were a wise soul in a past life it usually means that you'll be living a stressful, realistic life where you have this ufeeling that you don't belong here. Idk look it 7up. I'm having a break down of my own right now. But if you need to talk my email is cinderella22709@aol.com
fhghgh
by: Anonymous

I feel the same, I don't really know why entirely.It fucking sucks, but every once in a while, something turns me on that tells me not to, cause one day something will happen that I've always wanted to happen.The same will happen for you, I promise, it just takes time.Not one person in this world has never, not been depressed, we all think about dieing, and we realize not to worry about it because, one day it'll be our time anyway, so we should just enjoy it, and one day our pain will end.I know the feeling when sometimes you're so down, you don't even care about what people keep telling you, over and over, it just gets repetative and you don't want to listen.But just try it, one day something great will happen to you, I swear.

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