Desperately shy with no friends at all.

by Daisy
(UK)

I'm 17 and in my final year of school. I used to have a really close group of friends, but my best friend of many years suddenly turned against me last year, and hates me now. I'm too shy to stand up for myself so one by one my other friends have left, so I can't think of one friend that I have now. The feeling is as if someone has died and my whole life has no point, I've lost the people who I loved more than anything and I just can't get over it. I have always been shy, but now I can a whole day at school without saying a word. I've completely lost my self confidence, and I feel as if no one wants me around.

I feel invisible, and I feel as if I am wasting the time in my life when I should be having the most fun. I go to bed and just cry every night and sit in an empty classroom at breaks at school because I don't want to see anyone. I used to be so happy, but now I can't remember a time when I felt like my life was going somewhere. I feel guilty for wasting my teenage years away but I don't know what to do. I am just so painfully sad all the time and I can't see how anything will get better. Please help!