Depression on a Stupid Person (Me)

by iris
(Not On Your Country)

Hi
I read some stories about (young) people with depression and articles, but it didn't change a bit.

I'm 14 years old, and I'm quite familiar with depression because I realise that nobody sees me as anything else and I have this since I was 12. I don't think this is just normal teen depression... It's not like I don't "feel like me" or anything! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO I AM

Everytime I wake up and go to school (is the only thing I do, since I practicly live alone*) I just want to pass trough that day and just live, but on the 'contraire', I have a bunch of people in my class that make fun at me, and each word they say hit my heart like a bullet... And the worst thing is people think I'm an autist (have autism,sorry, don't know how it's spelled), and sometimes I think that too.

I'm not happy, I don't have friends or people who care about me-indeed, everybody doesn't give a crap about me, and if someone has the oportunity of staying away from me, they do.



Alright. There. That's all. At least it's what affects me most.

*My parents are divorced, my brother's on university and I only see my mom 5 hours a day.