Christmas without Dad

by Anon

Winters rolled around and now its just reminding me even more of how I miss my dad. He died during the summer, and only now am I completely going insane. Im 16, almost 17 but I feel like a child now. Im anxious, scared, upset and the fact that EVERYONE around me is so happy and overly cheery about Christmas, I cant take it - I feel like the Grinch.

I know that Christmas is lonely for a lot of people, but this is driving me insane. We have no decorations, no tree, no presents and we're going to a relative house for dinner. THIS IS NOT CHRISTMAS !
All I want is my daddy back and I know it'll never happen, but he is the only person that could make me in any way happy this Christmas.

Depression isn't even the word, I would pray that I might go to bed and never wake up but I know how much my family have been through.

Let's hope next year is good, nothing can get much worse than this ...

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Christmas without Dad

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About your Dad NEW
by: Laslo

Hello Aron,

I was touched by your lines. When I was 13, my Grandpa died suddenly. He was the person closest to me, the most important one in my childhood. I felt the same as you.

However, I had learned something very important. I lost my Grandpa but I've never lost his love and never lost my love to him. I'm old enough to know about death and life. Persons who passed the threshold of death, do not disappear. The connection lasts forever.

I'm sure that your Dad will be with you at Christmas. Just be very aware.

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