Am I the only numb?

by Taylor
(America)

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Photo Courtesy of Me diocre

I don't even know if what I have is depression. When your happy, truly happy, you feel it in pit of your stomach. I have not experienced this feeling, or any feeling except anger, in a loooong time.

I sit in front of the mirror and look at myself, with tears streaming down my face, saying over and over again 'This is a decease. I have an illness. I did nothing to bring this upon myself, and I am not able to fix this.' And I honestly cannot deal with this anymore. I can't speak in detail about it with the people I'm closest with, because I can't put that weight on their shoulders.

I guess the best word I can use to describe it is numb. I am numb. Am I the only one?

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Am I the only numb?

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Mar 30, 2011
 You're not the only one NEW
by: Anonymous

Me too, Taylor. Me too.
Jan 30, 2011
 Numb NEW
by: Brandon Erwin

I too feel numb, I dont get to have the happy feeling ever. I cant even remember the last time I was truly happy. When people tell me good things, I dont feel any emotion. When I hear bad things, theres no emotion. Even when I do something good for myself, still theres no emotion and I feel like im shut off and completely numb.

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